Happy Sad

It an odd feeling, that change thing.
I am happy to get what I wanted. Sad to be replaced.
It's happy sad.
Now I do have the time I wanted to have. My time. Time for what matters. Time for me an my things.
But it is still a sadness that comes with loss of the old in the presence of the new.
Not in a bad way. Like end of the year feeling. Excited for the new, sad to see the old go.

Odd and an interesting feeling.
Having new full time body will be much better. I can truly be part time assistance
And Full time me.

Think may actually have the time to get that web thing up and running.
That would be cool. Automated, once input stuff is out of the way.
I wouldn't mind that a bit.

I am still feeling that sense of urgency to get on with it already. All the things I have put in motion all year long are now coming down to these moments in time.
Funny - ok not really - how being in that space really made it all come together on its own. My standing in my intent made what I first thought was going to be the most difficult happen on its own.
My target. My circle. Those who weren't really with me have been moving out on their own. Those who I need - who I didn't even know I did- are moving further in.
Already I have a whole different support network than a few weeks ago.
And even sill others are coming or going. There is still work to be done, but not like I thought. Even biding time until necessary.
I keep thinking that stuff about how I make a difference.
No snowflake ever falls in the wrong place.
Pretty cool.

A life in flux.
How to make a difference?
Make a difference to the person in front of you right now.
That is truly how to have an impact on the world.
Start with one.