How 'bout that

This has been a most interesting day.
It didn't seem to start out all that great, but it sure ended that way.

For starters I cannot believe I am still up at this hour. It's been quite awhile since I did that. More and more lately I've been in bed nine tenish and certainly asleep long before eleven. Also waking up well rested much earlier too. May play a small role.

The conference call today was really something I needed. I've been scrambling to hold onto that lovin' feeling from just a week ago. It needed a boost today. Reconnecting with my team was just what I needed. Let some stuff out, allow some stuff in. Hearing everyone did me some good. And David. The best girlfriend ever, or rather I am his best girlfriend. I've missed that boy.
Tonight is definitely the first snow fall. I was thinking about how much he would love it out there. The magic of the first fall, big fluffy feathery snow. Lasts all of oh few seconds up to few moments - right about the time you have to walk in it and it melts all over you.
It is a thing of beauty though.

Tonight I experienced something simple, profound and wonderful.
In all the years I have been in this family - his family, even having grown up in it, I have always felt like an outsider. It wasn't even until I spent time with his sister last year that I felt any sort of belonging and even that was small.
I have never liked family gatherings or any such thing. I am the mother of the grand kids and that's pretty much it. Really rather sad actually. I even went so far as to say, without him I wouldn't go at all.
Tonight was Benjamin's second birthday and mommy is due with number two any second - Wednesday is b-day. Even though we haven't been on the best of terms for years now, it seemed like the right thing to go for cake.
I left work early - oh there's another fun story. He's working nights again so it meant me and the five without him.
It really was no big deal. I went, said hello to everyone and hung out with my family. And I felt like it was my family. I belonged there. Talked to everyone. And had really good time. Mike even talked to me, showed me the house. Had to show me his pride and joy -other than the bike. Blue Ray is definitely awesome, especially when its on 96 inch projection. It's like sitting in the theater. Good enough to stay for two movies.
It was really nice to know I belonged there. My nephews are about to become daddies together early next spring. That's pretty cool. Wives chatted. Played.
Kids talked to cousins. Made Cheese empanadas, and they even showed me how. It was a really cool night.
How about that. I belong there. I got the love, again all the way to my toes.

Cool.