Change

Change is Inevitable—Decide to Create the Change You Want

“There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.” - Denis Waitley

I've been thinking about the changes today brought. This is the first day of all of my five being in school. It's exciting and sad at the same time. They were all so excited and could not wait to get there fast enough. I was so tired from being up all night, I wasn't much for enthusiasm this morning.
Collette told me about this day. Not to worry about what I couldn't and wasn't getting done back then. That when this time came things would change. Boy have they ever. My baby is in school. Not a baby anymore. None of them are. She just fit right into that class. They all just slipped right back into the rhythm of the school. Normal really is good. Now I have 13 years to get caught up on.

I don't know how to rise to the changes around me. I have so much I want to do. The desire is there, but I'm afraid. Fear of what? Just for what is on the other side of it all.
So many great things are there, but right here are all the limitations and small things that hold me back so often.
Bills. Poor choices. Lack of time. Today lack of sleep.
None of it is all that important, yet my focus gets stuck there.
Three nights. I had three amazingly really good nights. I can tell the reserves are stocked - filled again. There is strength in being on solid ground. Of course those were followed by two ok nights and one crummy one. But to get real sleep was astounding.

Turkeys or Eagles?
Right now a little bit of both.

A sad and happy all at once day.
In just a little bit, it will become the crazy busy day of afterschool routines.
Driving again.

How the time is passing by, fading fast.
How they have grown.

Change.
Nothing gold can stay.
Her hardest hue to told.