Sunday night

Last night away. Today I feel awful. Not the best of days.
I am so tired today. I didn't wake up until after 11:30
Even with four kids fighting and screaming. Slept through pretty much all of it. Until Kenna screamed at the top of her lungs outside window. Sigh. It was much nicer when she came in and gave me snuggles at seven.
I spent the whole day on the couch pretty much. Sharing time with HBO, Spike and HGTV
A TV day, been a long time since I did that.
I am just sooo tired. Week without pills seams to have caught up with me.

Last night here. Reens and I spent day vegging together. I wish I could to stay longer and help her more. I know how hard surgery and little people is to handle. She seems to be doing bit better. I've really missed her. Going to miss her again when I go home.
We were talking while out today, and she knew. She new about Nicky. She knew something was going on for years. She watched him for three summers building up to that one. She didn't know what to say, she was even younger than I was. She just knew he was a bad guy. How come I didn't see that? Three summers. The third one being the one summer I was there alone.
{head shake} Three summers. I need a hug. Dammit. Well atleast he didn't get to her.

Family dinner tomorrow and school Tuesday.
The week is going to be busy.
This only day I can afford to be sick, guess that was good timing. How am I going to manage the flight back?
I did bring pills with me. Only thing I've got.
That and new shakes, which I actually like, surprise surprise.

This has been a really good week. I needed this way more than I realized.
I can only hope it was enough to give me what I need for this week.
Driving, working, Open house Saturday all day, Grad Sunday
Man is this week full. And school.
Four in Four.
How many ways can I? What if (up)...?

Ugg I need a nap again ... before I leave