Why Sunshine?

How do I explain why I'm crying now?
I feel like I've been wound way to tight for days, and now that I'm beginning to unwind it's emotional?? How does that make any sense?
Oh I know Journey again.
Stupid.Ballads Yet I cry again.

This was NOT the week I was expecting. Yet it was beyond my expectations too.
Passport looks like it might happen, so I may yet get away; alone. Tuesday will see.
I didn't get anything pulled together this week.
BUT I do get the seminar tomorrow so I can get my missing pieces figured out.
Really wish I had a partner to bounce this all off of. That would make learning and applying that much easier.

SO much for the unwinding thing.
More I let go, more there is behind it.
What with exam, training, new stuff, old stuff not completed.
Good that I took 1-5 down there Saturday, was no longer there by Monday.
And haven't been able to sleep all week. Just miserable.
How did that radar get a skewed?

Have I even written all week? I can't remember.

What the HELL am I running from now? What am I doing?
I really do need to get away, before the insanity of school starts.
I got to get my head cleared, centered and grounded again.
NEED to make this next weekend happen. No more excuses. It's time.

I just can't take anymore. I empty and full at the same time.
Not in the way I want either.
Manhattan!