The Bay

So this is Hello from the Bay!
As in San Fransisco Bay.
The ocean. The Bay. It’s amazing. Maybe I did leave a piece of my heart here last summer. I feels really nice to be back here even if it is a stop over.
First time I drove through, Second time flew through I think the third time I should stay awhile and enjoy the city. Didn't even get to smell the air. Feel that sensuous salty air, taste it with my tongue. Breathe in deep. I can actually do that there.
There’s a strange pull, a call to check it all out. Mysterious and exciting.
Sounds a bit odd to me.
Sat by a guy from SanFran on way here. He really likes it. Video game guy. City suits him.
It’s nice to be chatting to people, strangers again. No one knows who I am, I could be anyone. Yet I chose to be me and I like it. No one knows any history or how much hell this summer was. No pain to hide here. Like it’s not that big a thing. I like this normalcy thing.

I need to find a way and come back to this city again. Enjoy it. Spend time here.

I ‘m feeling scared and excited and nervous and something else.
I got time away. I wanted it so much I could almost taste it. And it happened. I don’t have any idea how or what but I know it’s going to be beyond my wildest expectations. Still it’s scary.

Texting is really cool. Landed, sent text home, got one right back. Seems without mom to crack whip, nothing happens. Nada zip, zilch. They are still at home, now they’re bored.
Sigh. Still cool to be able to do that.

Wonder who concert is tonight. Still have to work out tickets for week and such.
It will come together
What was that again?
When you trust yourself, you will know what to do.

Ok.

later.
Did I mention I love the SL valley. I have good memories of this place. Childhood happy memories. I couldn’t live here again. I’d go nuts. But it is really nice to visit. Be nice go to old haunts also. There’s a little bit of that coming back feeling, like a welcoming. I need to come here every year. I didn’t realize that until we were on approach.
It’s like getting a drug fix. It hit me how much I need this. I’d like not to be alone, but need that too I suppose.
Life’s kinda funny like that.

After being up all night. I am just wiped. First thing I did at hotel was to take a VERY hot shower with that massage setting. It felt great. Ready to face the world again.
Time to figure out this party thing tonight.
Just have to remember, I am not alone.

Hey maybe now I can get over this being sick thing. Had this sore throat for what couple weeks now. Didn't ever really go away after that asthma incident. Summer is way to nice to be sick in. What really bugs me though is all that hard work, one week without enzymes and eating wheat it's all undone.


Still have some venting I think may have to get to later....