Morning

I miss my own bed.

It was freezing last night. And lumpy mattress and pillows did not help.

The stars last night were amazing. You really can see thousands more out here in the dark.

I thought they were stunning from the backyard. No way. They are whole different kind of stunning way out here.

From my window I see the Rocky Bowl of Waterton. The view is something else. That with the stars, absolutely perfect.

It's worth the lack of good sleep to experience.

Today is another family day. I think going to go for a drive and do Waterton thing today.

Not really up for 100's people again today. Which is strange. I know I love people. I am definitely a people person, or I was a month ago. It's been a month. I can't even remember what life was like a month ago. It seems like it was another lifetime.

Now I just want to be around a few people I trust. Stick with helping 1-5 and leave it at that.

I don't want new, or change or anything.

I am not the happy, positive outgoing me that I was.

And I don't want to be.

Just my small tight circle. Not even all family.

Odd. And yet sufficient.

I am glad more of mine made if for today. Tonight will be interesting.

But my parents made it so this is good.

My Dad and I are doing better than we ever have.

Also odd.

It's my own little bubble world. I want to keep it that way.

I know I can't, but I want to.

The real world will intrude back before to much longer.

Reality cannot be avoided.

It's going to be a real slap in the face. One I am trying to stall as long as I can

Or at least swallow in small doses.

Why is this all so hard?

I'm shaking again today, and i can't let anyone see that.

The sun is shining this morning, but it is supposed to be a rainy day.

I want to create a quiet peaceful day.

This is my renewal and recharge weekend.

My opportunity to fill reservoir up and be sufficient.

What might today hold?