And the game plays on

You know that feeling of something coming. The one where your heart, intuition, that little voice inside, says here is comes. I have been feeling that fearful shaky feeling knowing that what comes next is going to be hard. Really hard.
And it was. I kept hearing myself saying I CAN'T, All evening. I just can't it's going to be to hard. I can't do it.

But I did it anyway. I choose to stay in that room when I could have left. I choose to stand up second and say what I wanted to experience. I choose to climb that ladder. Stand there shaking and be told to allow myself to feel it. To let it out and let it go. To be in that and go to where I could see it happen. To bring back to this moment what I needed to get it done. And then to go past caring what it looked like, falling anyway. Lying there crying, sobbing my heart out. Making that about trusting myself and allowing myself to see me how others see me all the time.
Letting that out and getting past it to the other side. To the peace, the warmth, the security that when we make a choice the Universe will not allow us to be harmed. It will test us to the ultimate limit, but if we stick to it, we will make it.

Good to know, to feel to be in that moment. Absolutely terrified and going beyond that moment into the next

This after showing up this morning and playing game on, engaging head on. standing up, playing all out. Working with and as a team.
I thought that statement applied to when we go home, building leaders with no one left behind. But it was right now. Doing that right now. If I cam not working with my team for us all to get there. We all lose, we are all DEAD. And all that goes with that.

It is not about me. Not my fears or thoughts or ideas. It is about what I bring to the game. how I show up.
Being Responsible as an adult is not a negative thing, It's not about blame or being wrong.

I create MY experience of the event.
It is my God given right. I have the ability to choose my own experience moment by moment by moment. It is my gift.

What do I get out of choosing that experience?
What am I choosing and why?

I cannot change the event - the storm is the storm.
Responsibility is what we do with who we are - after the storm

Get to the place of gratitude for the connection with another human being in/because of the experience,
The connection is the gift. That is what responsible looks like

Stand up. Stand firm. Stand the test of time, is true leadership.
Put your BUT on the line --> courage.

I know when I show up and when I don't.
So just do it already Dammit.