Should have know

It would have been a much better idea to end my day yesterday with a Steamer of some kind
Shower, bath either would have been a good idea.
I probably would have gotten a wee bit more sleep.
I am sooo stiff and sore today.

Working one on one is exactly what I wanted. But boy does it make me work.. S oops keep calling him by first name, not supposed to do that. McRory is nice to work with. I am learning more in one on one with him that I have been trying to follow along with everyone else. He's committed to getting me ready for competition. Which I still think is NUTS. And nearly backed out of last night. I may still chicken out, but working on that.

Today however is black belt training class. I've missed last couple. I am already hurting, in a good way too, This is going to be a killer lunch.
I soo need a neck massage. It's already stiff and after Mr. G's training I am going to be in some desperate shape.
This is all for my good though. In taking a different approach to the reoccurring problem, it has been suggested to not only maintain but increase my physical output. Sigh. Ouch.
I am in really bad shape. It is not going to change overnight by any means, but here's to the process.
Dammit there's that word again.

Interesting night. Peru? How did that happen?
And Safeway? Since when do I make a scene like that in public. And to remember it.
Well since I decided to play the game differently, right.
It wasn't right and this time I didn't back down.
How would that have looked that night during the game? Interesting.

It was way to short, but good.

It's an all five day again.
Will try Nadia again and see what we can cover.
And Klemmer's office to re-arrange some things and see about rescheduling.

I am insane. Committing to San Fransisco for a week, on my own no less, before November?
That's weeks away.
That means REALLY getting some stuff handled to make that happen.
OH But SanFran for a whole week. It would be something that's for sure.
I could see the ocean again instead of waiting for next summer.
And I would be outside, breathing that air I missed back in August.
I want it so badly. Enough to step up to make it happen.
Will it be enough. Does it matter?
It is the process not the result that makes all the difference.
Right process will get right result.
It is hard work and nothing else that gets me there.

100% intention + infinite mechanism = 100% results