Feeling it

I am hiding in my room
Kinda excited mostly scared of today. They actually warned us it was going to me a big day. Long day. May go till midnight for everyone to become complete
I don't know if I can keep doing this.

Each day is getting harder and harder. I'm feeling that fear thing.
I am really fighting the urge to run right now. Just run. Anywhere.

Away away away.
there is something there. i definitely feel it. confronted all over the place
and its friday. Halloween.
I want to be open. I'm here to do this. Whatever it takes
and that's looking like being me in here and now. This just keeps getting bigger.

It's raining here today and it smells soo wonderfully amazing.
I know the ocean is just over that bend in the road. I can smell it, and with the rain it's even better.

Can't hide forever, not if I want out. And i want out.
knock knock.

Feel the fear.