YEAH

I cannot believe something so good took me so long to get and allow.

It feels so much lighter to have that gone.
I was open to being so scared and clearing out the chasm anyway. When all that was gone I had room in my roots for letting stuff go deep.
I went deep to get it out, and what came back could also go just as deep
FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER I GET LOVE, no holding back any part of me at all.
I felt love all the way to my roots, down to my toes. I am loved and I love me,

How could something so wonderful take me so long to allow to happen.

I have business goals, but I came here really to find myself. I needed to connect with me.
Today I finally got that connection. Right down to the core, I got the loving feeling.
When they played all those songs It was more than a little emotional.
But I stayed with it.

I love this love stuff.
This makes me capable of being better mom, by being myself.

Today was the last day of digging deep and working on the past stuff.
Today was the last time to go so far down. I am so glad I got that now.

Tonight we begin learning the tools to keep things strong when I go back to the real world
Tonight we learn AIKIDO and we get to play the Samurai game.

I am still terrified of the new, but I am open.

I got past the resistance I had by allowing open to occur, and I got love.
I GOT IT!! I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT
It feels so absolutely amazing to fill in that hole with what has been missing for so long. I don't have to hold back at all, anywhere.

YES!!!!