Well this is a fairly big week. It's barely started and already full to overflowing.
New schedule has me with a 30 minute overlap, if that.
So it's even more all me for the week.
Costumes have been decided. I need to create a wicked queen/stepmother before the witch costume for Sunday. Though they are right, it's definitely one I could pull off. A seriously fun side.
I'm not all keyed up for this in the first place. I have to much work to do to have fun.
But it is mandatory to participate in the party we're hosting. How did I not think this was going to happen? Next Sunday is definitely not going to be mine. I get to dress up and work at having fun.
Good thing I got alot of me time in yesterday - by doing nothing. I never ever left the house.
Never mind house, I barely left my room.
My imagination is really going to be cracking.
This is week I have to give final answers on.
It would be so much simpler just to put it off for another month, or two. But if I don't do it now, I won't. I have already done so much of the ground work, stopping now would be such a waste. I'd have to do everything all over again. And if I don't get this step done, it will throw off the timeline I really really want for the rest of the year. If I don't go to SanFran next week, no way I could hope to get to CostaRica in eight weeks and certainly wouldn't make it to nationals in between.
Speaking of which, I am now apparently the computer person for that day as well. I get compete, parent, award, register, gopher and now deal with the new system computer. I'm going to end responsible for way more than I ever thought. No hiding there. It won't be a busy weekend, not at all. I asked about not competing, the answer was train harder, practice more and do it anyway. Kinda like the mantra for my life right now.
I am reminding myself over and over that Budah stuff I was reading. I already know the answers. Allow memory to show the way. Gives a whole new paradigm to reverse engineering.
Remember it happening and go backwards.
As much as I need my imagination right now, I also have to keep a tight reign on it as well.
Or else I will never get anything done.
Check list for the week
Kari / Chad - cheering, options?
Steele - Costa Rica specifics
Anthony / Bryce
Create it, plan it, work it
School hours
TKD ?
Now need to get handled new objections to me being gone next week. No second body now so who takes my role on? Driver even disappeared over weekend, so that isn't even handled now
There is whole lot going on now that I never thought would happen.
I have done this before. When it comes down to the wire, my commitment to my commitment comes into play. What am I not prepared to walk away from, what am prepared to do just that?
It will work out, it already has.
New schedule has me with a 30 minute overlap, if that.
So it's even more all me for the week.
Costumes have been decided. I need to create a wicked queen/stepmother before the witch costume for Sunday. Though they are right, it's definitely one I could pull off. A seriously fun side.
I'm not all keyed up for this in the first place. I have to much work to do to have fun.
But it is mandatory to participate in the party we're hosting. How did I not think this was going to happen? Next Sunday is definitely not going to be mine. I get to dress up and work at having fun.
Good thing I got alot of me time in yesterday - by doing nothing. I never ever left the house.
Never mind house, I barely left my room.
My imagination is really going to be cracking.
This is week I have to give final answers on.
It would be so much simpler just to put it off for another month, or two. But if I don't do it now, I won't. I have already done so much of the ground work, stopping now would be such a waste. I'd have to do everything all over again. And if I don't get this step done, it will throw off the timeline I really really want for the rest of the year. If I don't go to SanFran next week, no way I could hope to get to CostaRica in eight weeks and certainly wouldn't make it to nationals in between.
Speaking of which, I am now apparently the computer person for that day as well. I get compete, parent, award, register, gopher and now deal with the new system computer. I'm going to end responsible for way more than I ever thought. No hiding there. It won't be a busy weekend, not at all. I asked about not competing, the answer was train harder, practice more and do it anyway. Kinda like the mantra for my life right now.
I am reminding myself over and over that Budah stuff I was reading. I already know the answers. Allow memory to show the way. Gives a whole new paradigm to reverse engineering.
Remember it happening and go backwards.
As much as I need my imagination right now, I also have to keep a tight reign on it as well.
Or else I will never get anything done.
Check list for the week
Kari / Chad - cheering, options?
Steele - Costa Rica specifics
Anthony / Bryce
Create it, plan it, work it
School hours
TKD ?
Now need to get handled new objections to me being gone next week. No second body now so who takes my role on? Driver even disappeared over weekend, so that isn't even handled now
There is whole lot going on now that I never thought would happen.
I have done this before. When it comes down to the wire, my commitment to my commitment comes into play. What am I not prepared to walk away from, what am prepared to do just that?
It will work out, it already has.
This is what I want to see in the week after competing
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