Confronted

Well I had no idea just how much I was going to be confronted on literally day one.
How much, what and why. It's already been something of a day.
Good.
Yet in all the emotion, oh boy.
When I committed to show up 100% of myself, that also included others seeing that.
This flying thing gets a bit scary pretty darn quickly.

I keep reminding myself of those The Three Laws of Abundance
- Find a need and fill it
- Always do more than what I am paid for
- Be willing to handle problems that others are not willing to handle.

Well that means experiancing life from my perspective.
I have not been showing up, not fully present.
I have not been completely focused on the task or any task at hand. I have been trying to focus on 100 things at once. Do a 100 things at once, on my own. I have not been honest with myself, or anyone else around me.
I have paid a very high price for that.
I am not willing to pay that price any longer..
No more boiling this frog alive. Getting out of that pot.

So how do I recognize my Programming?
Well the emotion that shows up for starters, voice in my head and where that self talk leads - hammers being the bad thing here, my attitude - resentment here anyone? (oh have some stuff there to handle) and felt body sense - the whole body language feeling thing.

Onward and upward?