Second

Twice in one day. Wow.
Funny how sunshine always makes things a little brighter. I don't think I'd be able to stand it if it was rain today. Watching it both set last night and rise this morning was somehow cathartic? Maybe? Continuity. I watched it leave and new it would be back and then watched that same sun return. Proof that the world, life does go on. There is something after today.

Yesterday is a memory, Tomorrow is a dream. All we have is today. It is a gift, that is why it is called the Present. Words from a very wise old turtle. Something my heart needed.

Today I feel... Well for starters I feel. How sweat is that? I feel warm. Somehow? Safe, warm and taken care of? It's so hard to describe. Loved? It that what it is? It feels .... good.
Happy even. I can smile, just a little. The pain isn't gone. It is still there, but somehow not as sharp.

I'm pretty sure I didn't do anything different. The quiet last night was good, but I'm still the same. Where ever this came from, whoever; I am grateful. There is comfort where there wasn't.
Peace, if just small. I can almost cry. Maybe that will come with the new day too.

It is different today. Somehow today is ... better? Today is a new day. That one little thing I know. A new day, a gift. Different from yesterday, not repeated tomorrow.

Sunshine.
The sunbeams are talking.
the sunbeams are talking to you? What do they say?
No one will get that but me ... c'est la vie.

No brave face today. Today it can be real. Timid, but real.
I am not alone?
I am not alone.